Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Human Nature




There was something about Michael Jackson. I can’t articulate it. I can’t describe it. But there was something that made me stare at him and made it unable for me to look away from him when he was on television. It wasn't just his dancing, or the increasingly rapidly changing color of his skin, or his nose. It was a connection. Regardless of the changes that he made to himself, or that nature made for that matter, I connected to him. I connected to his voice, to his smile-to the way he bit his lip when he danced. I connected to the obvious sexiness that MJ had when he danced that submitted into boyishness when he wasn’t performing. I felt for him when he went through his changes – obviously going through self-esteem issues or something – something that made him not love himself as much as I, as we, did. Although his skin lightened, we knew that blackness is not a particular color - but something within that gave him rhythm and the ability to sympathize for the little poor kids dying of hunger in the "Man in the Mirror" video. Michael was a giver - and no matter how much he gave, the media made sure that some other spectacle took the forefront. We will feel his absence. We will feel the absence of entertainment as we are spoon fed tomfoolery from the music industry. His absence makes me remember when Thriller came out and I was completely terrified, but not of him – but of the zombies that pop-locked next to him. Of the trembling voice of Vincent Price-but not of Michael. I knew he would never hurt a fly-I just knew this. I knew that someone who smiled like that, who shied away, who gave like that, would never hurt anyone, let alone a child. I knew that he was searching for love, probably never having found exactly what he was needing or looking for. He never found that significant other that could verify and solidify that someone loved him for more than who he was, how good he could dance, how much money he had. Someone who could defend and protect him from the wickedness of the malicious media that make money off of the pain and suffering of others. After you reach a certain level of fame, I think it is hard to discern who is there for the novelty of it all and who really loves you. The discernment of that has to be confusing in itself. I agree with Al Sharpton – “There was nothing wrong with your daddy.” Michael had the unfortunate fortune of going through his personal issues in front of the entire world—for all to judge, critique and review. But there is something wrong with the media to destroying someone’s soul-making it impossible to even exist without cameras around for just one day. I, for one miss Michael. I will not debate if he did this or that. I will not get into an argument with people that admonish him to fuel their own personal blogs and television shows. I will declare that I am glad that he can rest now-only having to dance and entertain when he wants to. After working for 45 years – he deserves to rest in the arms of God. He gave us enough to remember – reflect, and relish. From the scarecrow in the Wiz to the amazement of the moonwalk – I will always remember Michael.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

I've been tagged!



Kimistry from http://www.ikimme.blogspot.com/ has given me the honest scrap award...so now I have to tell ya'll 10 honest things about myself and let ya'll all in my business..lol...here goes.


1. I absolutely adore Sting as a writer and musician - which may be considered weird as I was raised in SW Atlanta for most of my life.


2. I feel better and more beautiful when I am a size 8/10 and will never fall for the big is beautiful thing (for myself).


3. I hate moldy things, so if a pot has been in my refrigerator and i see mold, i will most times puke and throw the whole pot away.


4. I have never lost someone in my immediate family and think that it is too good to be true so I am in a constant state of waiting for something to happen. And praying for it not to.


5. I don't like traditional 9 to 5 work. It sucks bean toes.


6. I fear love.

7. I have never been out of the states yet, I am the only one in my family.


8. I can be flaky sometimes, especially when I am going through something.


9. I said this before, but I hate mascots with a PASSION and avoid them at all costs.


10. I bounce back quickly from failed relationships as long as there is no contact with the other person.


I tag Cap, Eb, Nicole, Wynsters, Light Skinnded Girl, and whoever else feels like telling some of their business.
Thanks Kimistry!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

R.I.P. Eartha Kitt


Eartha Kitt transcended race and entered into a sexy, kittenish persona until the day she died. She didn't beleive in plastic surgery and let nature take it's course. Here's to a beautiful, black vixen that stayed that way until the day she left this earth.
I am learning all the time. The tombstone will be my diploma. Eartha Kitt

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Merry Christmas


yes, everyone is hurting..but we will make it through! Here's to living life and realizing dreams!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

2008 - No looking back


In 2008.........
I didn't blog that much because so many things have transpired in my life....I am not looking back but forward..
I turned 30. Wow, It seemed like yesterdau I was fifteen with no worries.
I went to Hawaii - had a boyfriend - came home - no longer had a boyfriend. I'm better off though, I didn't even go through a withdrawal period. Guess I didn't love him like I thought.
I quit a job that I hated - and got another job a month later that I hated - lol ---I am no longer there and have another job. I must look up stability in the dictionary.
I am seeing someone new - who has proposed to me. I am so unsure though. We will see.
I realized that I need to be a better friend and stop being self consuming.
I realized that I have a temper that I need to get in check YESTERDAY.
I realize that blog friends (Cap, Nicole, Muse, Eb, Wynsters, Miz, (forgive me if I forgot anyone) will stay around even when I'm not blogging like I should.
I think I stopped blogging because people very close to me began to read my blog and I didnt feel free to tell everything.
I have begun blogging on Essence, so check me out http://community.essence.com/profile/Lei.
In 2009 i will GROW.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

And though it seems heaven sent, We have yet to see a black president. - Tupac Shakur


Well Tupac, It happened, and I still can't believe it myself. I have had so many discussions about President Barack Obama. Most recently I was asked if I thought that if Michelle were white, would he have won. Honestly? I don't think so because there is something very appealing about a Black man loving a Black woman. There is no novelty to it and the relationship seems very honest. It also makes me want what they have because it seems so genuine. More importantly though, does this mean that lightskin brothas are back in style? :P

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Life, I wonder..will it take me under? - Nas


If I ruled the world....
John McCain would go and live out the remainder of his life with his billionaire wife and not want to shorten the mainder of his life to be president.
All of the people responsible for this housing/finance crisis would be placed in jail for unsavory business practices, i.e. theft just like I would if I stole something from Sak's.
I would know love and be sure of what it is, even when it isn't the obvious coochie-coo kind of love.
off to cook mango, curry chicken...holla at a sista....

Friday, August 22, 2008

Haiku Friday


Ultimate Night

Fire and Sade

Man, woman, incense and rain

trusting each other














Monday, August 11, 2008









Well, XP is back...I have missed all of you but I had to take a step back to look at what I wanted out of life....I turn 30 on the 7th of September (Go Virgos!) and I needed an update, a refresher if you will........so this might take a minute, sit back relax and I will let you in on my piece of life....
Work......
I quit my job of course, and did not regret it even a little bit.....It took another month for me to find a new job. During that month, I worked out every single day, walked my dog, spent time with my family and friends, and of course looked for another job. I have a new job that I like and I get to be out of the office 3 days a week....my new co workers and bosses are great and I think that I could stay here for a little while until my next journey...
Relationships.....
I left Mr. Hawaii alone and still lost the weight that I said was going to lose...I am not where I want to be, but I am on route...I work out at least 3 times a week.....I am not looking for anyone, I have a few suitors, but I am seeking direction on the man homefront because I get pissed when I waste my time...
Blogging...
I stepped away from blogging because I didn't have the energy to write, I was mentally tired an unable to focus, but now I feel much better and I am ready to continue......one of ya'll need to school me on updating my page though...I feel like a loser with this regular blogger template.
Other than that, your girl is back in the game....ready for the future and whatever it brings....






Saturday, August 9, 2008

XP is back....forreal this time...lol




Hi ladies and gentlemen...I had to come and hit the page today to offer condolences to the Mac family...Bernie Mac was a great comedian and he felt like an uncle to me even though I never met him..black folks have that kind of connection..when anything happens we all feel it, some kind of way that just happens....I really felt missed from all of my blog friends and I plan on making it to New York in October for the book signing...now where are my mu freakin cookies and sh*t...lol..............r.i.p. Bernie Mac..............

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Don't Call it a Comeback


Ladies and Gentlemen.........
Ya girl is BACK....
With a new job....
A better salary...
A thinner body....
A healthier attitude.....
A new outlook....
With Jesus in the center of it all.....
One.

Sunday, March 30, 2008



“Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don't complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don't bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality . Wake Up and Live!”
Bob Marley quotes (Jamaican Singer, Composer and Guitarist. 1945-1981)

Friday, March 28, 2008

Weird Artistic Interpretations of Xcentric Pryncess












Transform your face here.......very weird, you can see what you look like as another race also.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

It's a Celebration Beetches....


A few updates.............
I quit my slave job...
I had enough of the corporate crap that I was dealing with
And I did it...
No regrets..
I gave them 2 weeks...
Life goes on..lol

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Fossettes

Je lui ai demandé de dormir
Al'intérieur de ses fossettes
Dans mes rêves, je serais en mesure de
Il a dit:
Oui Bien entendu, vous pouvez
Donc
J'ai obtenu ma couverture
Et mon oreiller
Et il a fait de la place pour moi.
Puis j'ai dormi.

Translation

Dimples

(I asked to sleep
Inside of his dimples
In my dreams, I would be able to
He said, yes
Of course you can
So
I got my blanket
And my pillow
And he made room for me.
Then I slept.)

70 Percent


According to Oprah, the number above represents the percentage of African-American women that are not married. 70%??????? I mean some people have suggested that this is an exaggeration of statistics, but maybe not. I have women in my family and friends, as well as myself who remain single despite the fact that we want to get married one day. What could the reasons be?? Is it because so many black men are disproportionately incarcerated? Could it be that brothers are dating women of other races at a higher rate than we think? I don't know, but this statistic is frightening. It is frightening to know that I could end up by myself for twenty or more years. Me and most of my girlfriends are college-educated, degreed, attractive, non-attitudinal, driven women who would probably make great wives. So what is the problem??????

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Cop-out, lazy post


I had a number of things on my mind, but I think that I will copy off of Muse this week. You guys can ask me anything and I will be truthful, honest and will not hold back...I promise :P


Thursday, March 13, 2008

Realization




Realize




I am not this perfect woman
This perfectly formed Venus
Dipped in marble perfected-ness
I have this funny nose that my mama gave me
And these big ole hips from Grandma Neal
And I am tall like Sarah Combs
I have my daddy’s coloring and
There is a mole that sits to the left underside of my lip (one that most women draw on)
That I love
And a scar on my forehead formed when I was running
And laughing
At the same time.
I am not this perfect perfection
My hair curls when I am hot
And my stomach pokes out a little, right after a good meal
But, It’s ok
I’ve learned to live with these lips, this nose, these hips, that scar and that little mole
That reminds me of my exquisite
Imperfection.

xp 2008 3/13 - written @ 4:55 p.m.

Monday, March 10, 2008

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